Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Fat Graft Liquefaction or Edgar Allan Poe Couldn't Have Meant This

As I prepare myself to run in the 2013 Susan G. Komen Greater NYC Race for the Cure on Sunday September, 8th, it seems appropriate to mention my latest breast cancer surgery side-effect.

You know that weird sensation when you're underwater and can literally hear your own blood coursing through every vein and artery in your body? Or when you hold a conch shell up to your ear and you're miraculously granted a direct pipeline to the ocean's inner monologue?

Recently I've noticed that the implant in my right breast has been sloshing around inside of my chest when I go running. Not only can I feel it, but the sound it produces within the core of my being is maddening.  It's like I'm living my own personal Tell-Tale Heart nightmare.

While I feel the noise and know where it's coming from logically, the elusive, out-of-body reverberation is like an ancestral memory of my phantom breast. Maybe it just wants to make sure I never forget it once existed. Quite frankly, its eerie and I have a hard time distinguishing which of the two senses (hearing or feeling) I'm really perceiving. I can only liken it to being able to taste the smell of something.  That makes no sense really but if you think about it for a minute I bet you'll understand what I mean.

My breast surgeon says its liquefation from the the fat graft I had back in January. He tells me I just have to be patient until the excess fluid is reabsorbed back into my body.

Funny how the only part that won't liquify is the irksome little blob that has nestled itself in the middle of my cleavage.

I have a tendency to run to the doctor to check-out every little fluctuation my body registers and for that, some may brand me a hypochondriac. In my opinion, most people are so out of touch with their own body and abuse it to such a degree, they are desensitized to any warning signs that something serious may lie beneath.

Anyway....thanks Edgar for this apropos justification:


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